Self realisations – Two

There is a huge difference between being ambitious and being competitive.

Ambition is a game you play with yourself; always trying to outdo your past achievements and accomplish more for yourself. It is like a ball of golden thread deep inside you, which you unwind slowly. Others have always seen me as ambitious; I have been slower to see it in myself.

Competition is another creature altogether. A beast. Its arena is outside, not within. It grows in proportion to how well you have thwarted others and is not about your own achievements. I have always been too soft to be truly competitive. Too empathetic. I could never stomach the thought of getting ahead by pushing someone else down. Instead, I always chose to step aside.

Some saw that as my weakness. I’d like to believe it was their weakness, and not mine.